I "Fall", and Fell Down Crushed

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
Theres pictures of you and I on the walls around me the way that it was and should have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Would it help if i turned a sad song on
"All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

link to the song

"The Emo" Has Come Back

The most I hate about myself is when I'm in the condition of like PIECE OF SHIT!! Hell, I can't even think straight, lying to myself that everything's gonna be fine and just continue study? that's BULL!! I feel as if like I don't want "this" anymore, because i feel like you don't really realize that I'm actually the one who suffer while you feels the opposite. But to "let go" would means I'm opening this wound even larger. I'm really at my ends. I HATE THIS!!

I'm in turbulence, I'm all kind of feeling except being happy. To become like this because of one human being I don't know if it's because I despise that person or I care. Sometimes I feel like I was played. That would only means I'm no difference than your other "victims". Is that how you treat your prey? There are so many things that I wanted to ask you, but every time we met, you somehow manage to "take" that away. I understand now that you know how to play with words. And everytime, I was lost to your sweet-mouth.

Now I feel like you're walking away, maybe I should too?

Short Post

hmmm.. just got back from my dinner : )
wahh~ best nyaa..who would've thought today I end up saving my money for food LOL all thanks to my friends eh no the lecturer that treated us hu3 honestly talking about d lecturer I'm going to confess la I don't even know that lecturer's name ~,~ well xpa laa I bet he also didn't know my name hu3 (so we're even LOL bley ka mcm 2? ha3) hmm yg penting..PUASS!! hak3

Skrg sy trpksa sambung study pla haishh I really need to work on my study-ethic =.= sbb mana bley pksa study, xmsuk kowt~ hu3 DIEx99 T~T

k laa, off to study.. *sigh

Jalan-Jalan Release Tension

Kunun sja mo release tension tp padahal ehem3 btul2 mo gila psal 1org 2 (eeeeee!!)

aiseh kunun he3

16 APR 2010
530pm

nway, sy rs kali nie sy tulis dlm bm sja la.. biar Malaysia skit hu3 (ya ka? ahaks : p)
hmmm, jln2 2 mo tau sy p mna?? (soalan bonus, ha3) well sy p pntai SABAK dgn MY coursemate!! (hmm klo tukar K 2 p H kn, trus jd SABAH ha3 : p) ^^ ui gila laa, kmi teda strecthing pn sblm p 2, trus abis ja ekspidisi kmi nie(ceh~ ekspidisi kunun he3) adedeh skit paha sy ha3 xD LOL bkn pa sbb duduk brkangkang(mcm luc** sja ni ayat oh kah3 sot he3 grau ja ek) jd passenger, last2 suda la.. sbb yg mula2 start journey 2 sy jd driver LOL ha3 eh jap lupa plak mo bgtau, kmi naik basikal sja la~ hu3

nie dia geng2 bus skula! eh silap geng2 brbasikal UMK hee xD LOL
(jahat dorg nda 2nggu sy brgmbar, trpksa jd giraffe skjap spaya nmpk muka skit hu3 +,+)

ni masa mo limpas jln
(apadaa~ ambk gmbar masa sy blm ready hu3 tp hurmm masi encem jga la hua3 : p)

-beberapa minit kmudian-

kayuh pnya kayuh basikal 2, smpai la kmi d checkpoint prtama
(ceh checkpoint kunun, he3 kira mcm pitstop kmi utk rilek dlu arr)
Jom minum 100+ dlu!!

nie 2 org godoot ceh~ nda ba panat ba durg 2 hu3 ksian lalalalala~

ehjap rewind2!! sblm kmi smpai cni, emm mo tgk ka sy pnya gmbar time mngayuh bsikal? (: p kah3)
mesti la mau kn??? LOL

jeng3 smart ka? LOL

well k k fast forward blik
emmm, k lpas 2 abis ja kmi moginum 100+ d checkpoint prtama td em nmpk ka bdak prmpuan yg jd passenger sy 2? dia ckp dia mo kayuh basikall so jd bdak baik la sy konon time 2 bg ya ya jaa (sbnarnya sy mo daa bw smpai d pntai hu3 tp nda pa) mo taw apa sy naik lpas 2? buang "ba" tmbah "moto" d basikal, jd la motosikal (ha3 ayat budu LOL)

hek3 tueee na sy nmpk ka? LOL
mmg best la time 2, ya la bkn slalu jga sy naik motor nie hu3
klo ikut cara org local sna ckp kn, ayat utk mngekpresikn tahap best 2 kta sebut..
"BAPAK BEST!!"
xD

hmmmm ok trus kn prjlnan, smpai la kmi dkat checkpoint ke-2 (hehe) ba pa lg mesti la brgmbar lg kn? ha3

fuhhh~ 2 km lg.. jiayou!!! he3

jln pnya jln, eh eh camera ada plak tmpt sy
so projek2 ambk gmbr2 mnarik arr hu3 besa la sy nie klo suda kana bg camera pntang nda guna hik3 nasib bek la sy naik motor bley laa snap sna sini he3

nie signboard mo p tmpat destinasi ktaorg he3

cntik ka? pndai kn sy ambkk : p ha3 LOL

nie mnara dkat masjid area sna, fuyooo~ he3

ui mcm pnjang gila suda ni post sy ha3, k k sy kasi pendek crita la..
k trus smpai la konon kmi sna, uishh mo ckp nda cntik nda jga (huhu) tp mo ckp cntik pn nda jga (hehe) tp pa yg penting kmi akhir nya smpai destinasi kmi dlm "ONE PIECE" lol he3 itu yg penting kn biar slamat walaupun lmbat, eh silap biar lmbat asal slamat hu3 xD soooo....

jeng3 ni la geng2 brbasikal UMK, akhirnya smpai jga kmi d pntai SABAK.. tengkiu la sma pakcik yg tlong kmi ambk snap nie, pndai jgak dia ek ha3 LOL hmmm k la penat arr mo crita lg korg tgk gmbar sja la, like one saying goes.. "A picture worth a thousand words" he3

sy sgt ska gmbar nie sbb sy sorg ja len pose ha3

Aiseh maintain kool conon ha3

hah gmbar nie arr sy gna utk profile pic my fb hu3

uishh ni time on da way blik kampus he3 smpat lg brgmbar d tangah jln hua3

fuhhh akhirnya smpai jga d kampus, suma pnat gilaa tp muka maintain SMILE utk camera he3 masa hari tu mmg best laa, perhhh PUAS!! he3