Search, Think, and just Believe.

Having a hard times? Drink tea/something, sit back and relax. Typical commercial slogan that doesn't imply anything to me at all. Are you buying it? Honestly, really? Hard times or problems exist in everywhere, anywhere, whoever, anybody, and everyone. By just drink something, or by sitting and relax won't solve a thing or anything at all. We experience the constant emotionally depressed or so very down upon reacting to this matter. To some people, unfortunately can be easily succumbed into it and dwells in the darkness for an eternity (ok, that's a little harsh and nonlogic) but the main thing is, you won't be able to act like the normal you, or even a normal person. To simplify, it changes how you see things and challenges the inner you upon seeing how would you react.

Recently, I read one of my friend blog. It's very long I'd say but I think it's worth wasting my time upon reading things that really inspiring. To me at least. Yesterday, I attended my Falsafah Ilmu class and honestly I truly believes every single words of what my lecture had said. Sometimes when people ask "Why do you live?", "What is your motto?", or "What do you believe in?" and then you hear the answer is "I don't know." What is you first impression to that person? Some people might see it as something isn't worth it or he/she doesn't have purposes of living. FALSE. "I don't know" doesn't mean that he/she doesn't have answer to that questions. It just happen that they doesn't realized it yet. It is said that, you have to ask yourself to every things, keep criticizing like always ask WHY to every question that come out of that very mind of yours. Until it reaches the point where you can't ask "why", then that is the answer! You can find your Falsafah by doing just the same process.

If people can understand that every problems has its solutions then it will be a happy world. To some people at least. I see my friend dealt problems very maturely. It really inspired me how I should start by see things from like my friend's point of view. You don't let problems put you down, instead you put an effort to cope the problems. People won't go anywhere, if he/she took problems statically and JUST wish that problems can go away. Just like that. Unfortunately, solving problems doesn't work that way.

Some people may turn to God. That is of course relevant because other than you, there is God that understand what are you going through. So it is not exactly that you're going through something alone. People who realizes that, are the one who mostly will succeed to overcome their problems. I believe everything that has happened before, right now, and will be are all planned by Him. I am a believer.

L O V E

Love. What is love actually? If you ask people around you, would their answers end up the same or is it vary? To me love is a feeling, a transformation of hoping-missing-caring that unite into one single word, and portray  emotionally things that can make us either on cloud nine or down in the dumps.

Love is everywhere. You see someone walk their dogs at the park, you see someone assisting the elderly on the street, you see people greets to each other, and all that, are love. It is invisible to our naked eye. Well, of course because love isn't something that consists of matter or compounds. The only things that love have is the ability to influence people's heart.

Love is kind and bad at the same time. It is natural that people tend to believe everything's fine as long as there's love. It is true but then why is it to some people there is cruel love? Forbidden love? Conditionally love? All that defines somethings that doesn't sound very fine. As the matter of fact, it is very disturbing.

All in all, there are so many things that I define Love as, like,

1. Love is cute.
2. Love is passion.
3. Love is freedom.
4. Love is forgiving.
5. Love is edible.
6. Love is something we wanna hold on tight to.
7. Love is something we need everyday.
8. Love is something that we want to share to the others.
9. Love is something that doesn't define you.
10. Love is something that make you think of extraordinary.
11. bla bla bla.

Firenade.

Start the day with a little MASH-UP of Fireworks and Grenade 

^______^

psst the guy is good.

Secret.

Have you ever been in a situation where someone almost discover your secret? 

The unknowing question or action that that individual will direct to you really hit you in the face, no? You started to talk all weird, everything just flow out of you mouth without you had the chance to think how should you respond. Like, you can just blurt out whatever is that crosses on your mind. Other signs could be that, you would appear frightened, and so uncomfortable that if you can, you would like to just get out of that conversation, like really run away.

You know, a secret is suppose to be private and confidential. Only one person is to know and that's that. But to try to change that "only one person's view" to maybe a couple of people's, that's a real tough challenge that you  have to go through. The major thing that you need here is the trust. It's like trust is the medium for a secret. lol. Anyhow, you wouldn't just tell someone about your secret if you don't trust that person right? But you know what, don't ever tell any one about your secret, even if it means you're getting hurt. 

But then, people said that it's best that you share. Sometimes it can ease up  the weight on some of that "things" you've been carrying. Not completely unloading it, but just so you feel better. This is so true I can't deny it. But only of course it depends on what kind of "things" are you carrying right? All secrets may share the same definition, but every people have different and their own elaboration and examples to that. That's why I'd say there are two types of secrets, the one that you can buried with you to the ground, or the one that you can shoot to the sky like fireworks.

In the end of the day, it really depends on the individual's maturity to see things in the world.

Is it what you want?

IDK

What a shame when there is something that you wanted to do, but you can't really make yourself do it. I've faced this kind of situation like really a lot. Today it struck me as a total bummer like I still can't bring myself to actually take the action when deep down I wanted to. Sighing. God! how great it could be if there is like a button on my body that I can push so then I'm like this other person who doesn't afraid to do or voice out to the things he want.

What am I suppose to do?

Tweet, Tweet and Tweet!

hey hey hey follow me on twitter! ~~ twitter.com/frankieishaktan

Being sweet doesn't necessarily indicates you're nice.

Sweet talker? Ughh pathetic.

To the people who is "sweet" on the outside but "bitter" in the inside, I curse you from the day you are born. God! I never been so angry. These people are nothing but some shameless people who'd do anything to kiss someone else's ass. Do you know what that means? Yeah it marks you right at the forehead as a low-dignified self-centered son of a b*tch.

I can totally understand if it's under the circumstances that people in need of some support, like in terms of, verbally. But to happen under the situation that it is unfavorable, that's bad news people and a total NO NO.

I can never understand why bosses are so non-reluctant to this matter, like what the hell, being pampered by words? Pathetic. Anyway, bringing this subject in relationship-wise, does it necessary for such sweet talk for a relationship to remain "active"? That's another thing that I don't understand. Ya know, sometimes relationship confuses me. Coming from someone that doesn't always end up with a good ending in a relationship, I guess that's why I still don't understand it. But hey, I can't deny that this is interesting.

Anyhow, just for warning, don't spit your sweet talk on me. or I'll shove your mouth with some real "candy".

New look with Love.

DIGIMON EVOLUTION!!!! eh silap~~ HAHA!! Blog transform! LOL

Hey, since it's been a shedding-my-skin week I've decided to do something about my blog too. Don't know where I got the idea from though but this is how it turned out when it was not planned. Oh well, no biggy. I love it, full stop, and  that's that.

Hrmm although I had already lost my love, but here, I have all the love I need. 

and LOVE for all! peace. 

A big-spender?

Fuhhh! ~~~ pnya panat!!

Shopping is fun, but tiring. I don't know how the women can do it lol.

Today was like super fun! I spent almost RM400 *errrkkk!!* I guess being 20 is all about going crazy right? lol

Anyway, I bought like tons of things. Really a lot for just RM400. I wouldn't give a single thought of regretful of course 'cuz it's worth it! Seriously and I had a blast! ^___^

Here's the things that I bought :

1. 5 T-shirts
2. 2 Pants
3. A book.
4. Sony MP3 player
5. and "The One"

All in all, the things that I'm so proud of is that, I bought 'em with my own money. Yes, no other than my own. God this feels good! huuheeee~

The things that a Picture can do.

WOW! a wake up call? It was this evening when I stumbled on my family albums, just on my way to take my bath. I opened it and without realizing the time, I had been like looking at the pictures of the albums for like hours. Yes to assume probably 2-3hours I think. Looking back at my family albums, I sure changed a lot. Period.

It's funny how you look back and have this sudden thought in your mind like, is that me? WHO IS THAT? What the hell am I wearing? Oh my, what am I doing? Oh-my this, oh-my that. This overflowing questions are like keep coming. At some point, I laugh to my self and said "WOW, that is really me."

Basically, people would be reminded with events that had happened in the past when they look at pictures. That's what I had too, the constant past events slowly emerges from my mind. It's incredible how we suddenly remembered back a lot of things at one look of a picture. Like what happened before and after we took the pictures, like what made us smiled like absolutely pure happiness when the pictures was taken, and like what a great experiences we had during that time. Such good memories sure put a smile on our face that's for sure.

Something crossed in my mind, God created mankind the intelligent to think and remember. So actually we're already given the "the camera and photo albums" in our subconsciousness. And mankind created the real camera and photo albums to capture what we call the memory of moments, for our consciousness. I had this idea in my head but I can't put my finger on it, it's like, it makes me wanted to have a camera right now. People live their lives differently everyday. So do I, and it could be fun to like capture everything, what has happened today. Create things that we can look at after tomorrow and in the future. and create that smile again in our face =)

I hope in the future I would have like thousands of photo albums about my life. Sounds interesting don't you think? I have lived until 20yr now, who knows how many more years I can live until I practically stop functioning lol. Wonder how many albums I'd have right now if I had started sooner. hehe. hrmmm anyway, think I'll start making that collection next year. Keeping my finger cross, hope I can get a camera of my own by the end of this December. Wish me luck! ^__^

Hey it's Holiday!

ahhh~ HOME SWEET HOME! there's no other place like home. The scent, the view, the people and especially the accent, God! So missing it. 

Glad to be back. This holiday is gonna be great I'll make sure of that. Hope everybody's not too busy though. Hrmm, I think I ought to make a to-do list HAHA:

1. eat EAt EAT!! sure will make my day!
2. Hang out with friends like really GO OUT!
3. Go to the cinema ^__^
4. Shopping, shoppingg, and more SHOPPING!!
5. Meet some new friends. (I gotta be a little bit socialize :D)
6. Download tvseries, movies, kDrama, jAnime, and some p*** HAHA
7. Finish up my assignments -____-!
8. I have to work on my driving skill, I mean like on manual car >,
9. Get shape up!
10. Get white up! LOL
11. Get my self a new hair-do.
12. Facebook-ing~
13. Blogging
14. Chatting
15. "Hunting"
16. Be a part-time photographer.
17. Get my self a VERY EXPENSIVE clothing!
18. Jacket would be nice too.
19. And shoes
20. OH and finally a new.... *secret* hehe

THIS IS GONNA BE FUN! ^____^

123 go Go GO!

SEMANGAT ZOMBIEE!!! 

bsuk 14.11 last paper ..

FIGHTING!!!

Think about it.

"Don't cry for someone who doesn't love you."

Wow! honestly? That sentence has been replaying on my mind recently and I can't resist but to write it out. First, why must we cry? Isn't it pathetic when every drops of that tears is just a waste like what does crying do? You don't get to be loved back by crying, that's just sad. I mean you're a whole set of living-water-supply like that tears can fill up a whole bucket if u cried like it's the end of the world. (now that's nonsense lol)

People, from my experience, crying won't take you to anywhere. In fact, it's bringing you down to that bottomless pit of sadness, which when you actually hit something, that's when you are to realize how stupid you were. Even if you are to crawl back out, you are a walking dead-soul.

You know what, to people who actually cry for someone who doesn't love them back, get a life. They won't cry along and share that pain with you. You might as well just cry to a baby, that you won't have to cry alone, 'cuz babies could cry with you. lol

Hrmmmphhh

It's the day when you wish you had a bigger one.

Oh my, what a view. If that happens at the airport? My advise, don't ever put your undies in there 'cuz it might leap out.

Hrmmmm so,

Today is the 12th of November. People are leaving for their home. Knowing that everything was over (the exam), the pressure that everyone had, has been like lifted up of their shoulder. Ah that feeling is great. I'm happy for them (Yeah that's me being positive lol) Well on the other hand, as for me? the weight is still there I mean like I can see it, everything is "there" like just right beside me, it even look back at me now LOL (am i going crazy here?) yeah well it's 'cuz my exam hasn't over yet. Still it's a one-more-to-go paper, so I am gonna like work my a** off of this one. There's people who want me to excel on this exam, I mean I can't let them down but at least I'll die trying (Oh p/s I'm not gonna die, it's just a metaphor lol).

The fact that everyone is leaving, I have to pack. I hate packing actually. I mean I love the idea of going back to my hometown but packing is just kinda- how should I put it- well troublesome. It just that every time it's the end of the semester break, we have to pack our things and have the room like as good as new, or as just like before we moved in. I mean we are gonna stay at the same room next year, why the trouble? And after that, we have to carry our stuff to "this" room where we put it until it's time to get it back, which is like a month from now. Wait, hold on, did I tell u, that the deadline is today. I mean they put this like notice saying that "penyimpanan barang akan bermula 10-11 Nov" Today is the deadline, i know but i haven't pack my things yet 'cuz H to the O, HELLO! i have one more paper to go! You don't rush things okay or it'll get out of hands. And well I don't care about the notice. I'll put my things there whenever I want it and that's that! 

Ugh! It's so frustrating every time I think about it. Damn!

Anyways, I can't wait to go back. I mean like being here any longer can make me go nuts. It's such a shame that I hate my own university. (OMG! this I just say that?). WELL, not that I hate to the point where I resent it. NO, ofcourse not. It just there are so many problems going on here, n hey like I don't have enough problems already. Ugh! Give me a break~ Unfortunately, THIS here is now my way to the great things that I'm going to get in my future, so no turning back, and I guess I have to learn to "LOVE" this place. Oh God, I'm not even good at loving a living creature, now "this"? can y'all just cut me some slack please~ Hrmm this is where I should say my prayer "Oh Lord, please help me overcome this imbalance thought/feelings that's been bugging me all this time, I need guidance and honesty, please give me the pure heart to love and not by force. Amen!"

Wow! I'm sensing something here. Is it God's answer? Wait, wait. Oh it's my roomy, peeping from the back wondering what I'm doing I suppose. -______-!! LAME~ Hey you know what, I went to the gym today. Trying to get "that" biceps and 6-pacs I wanted so long, like really2 long ago lol. Hold on, let me check, hey I got 4pacs already HAHA.

I guess it's still a long way to go *sigh. Hold one, HEY, sighing brings me no biceps and 6pacs! 

"Okay FRANKIE you're going to work out now! if you want "that" body, you better work you a** off! you got that? NOW START work out and get that jelly-stomach harden up! God, this kid is hard."

Hrmmm okay peeps I'm out, that's my inner-fitness-coach talking lol.

-Out to get harden up-

911

(3:10am - still awake walaupun suda pksa tidow tadi.)

Having problem sleeping.

please somebody help me.

 

Oh Errr, Emmm ba bgini la nie

Wahh pnya lama suda sy nda post entry bru HAHAHAHA xD (nie 1st time msuk slpas sekian lama nda buka blog =_______=!!) HUHU

 

UIshh blogger mcm brubah suda ka nie? lol HEHE hrmmmm lama nda msuk brubah wajah suda kunun. haisshhh~ life~ that's life~ org slalu ckp mcm tuh. Perlukah sy brubah jgak? hrmmm *garu2 kpala* (apakaa yg sy merepek nie?) huhuhuh

Apakah mo jadi sma dunia nie~ makin panas oh! sy rasa sy hot btul! (wow HOT gituh~)

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eh silap2 sy rasa kpanasan behh HEHE =P nda tahan ohhh~~ mo balik!!! mo balik!!! mo BALIK Sabah!!! T_____T

sbnarnya sy pn nda tau ap mo tulis huk3 hrmmmmmmmm

emmmmm 

hrmmmm

ahhhhh

eh?

errrr?

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- sekian saja entry ini -

hehehe mo p blajar dlu.

oh mggu depan sy mo exam suda oh. Wish me luck kio!

FIGHTINNNGG!!!

Trip to Temerloh, Pahang [part 01]

[29th September - 02nd October 2010] -
the best moment ever!

So kelas kami ada organise satu field trip ke Pahang. More specific, dekat Temerloh. Perjalanan untuk ke sana memang jauh. Kami bertolak dari kampus UMK pada pukul 8am(29th sept), and smpai Temerloh @ tempat penginapan lebey kurang kol 6pm *penat duduk dlm bus ~,~!* hurmmm sebenarnya perjalanan tuh ambik masa 7jam jak, tapi disebabkan driver bus tuh mau service bus tuh dulu *ya lah jalan jauh kan mau pastikan tayar ok* so dekat situ memang habis banyak masa la. Lepas tuh kami singgah situ sini lagi. Hal maklumlah budak2 sekarang cepat lapar so banyak kali berhenti untuk makan la! hehe

Anyway, so hari pertama tuh aktiviti kami cuma jalan2 cari makan jak lol. Keesokan harinya pulak, we went to Deerland! Tempat nie terletak di Lanchang Kuala Gandah. Tempat ini memang FOC, we spoke with the owner of the place, and 

he said "saya menubuhkan Deerland ini pada 1996 dahulu dengan satu objectif sahaja, iaitu menjadikan tempat ini sebuah kawasan rekreasi untuk semua lapisan masyarakat, tak kira miskin atau kaya, foreigner or non-foreigner, OKU atau non-OKU, warga-warga emas dan lain-lain lagi"

so masa kami dengar speech dia tuh, memang rasa wow la kagum sangat2. Then habis jak sesi pengenalan semua, dia pun bawa la kami masuk so dia kira macam jadi tour guide kami la. *perrggh best!* dalam Deerland tuh ada macam2 la. Semua benda yang saya perolehi situ 100% new and pure knowledge and for once at that moment i know that I'm proud to be an Animal Husbandry students :D. Hurmmm jom tengok2 gambar yang saya snap masa dkat situ! hehe.

 bergambar sama artis *uhuk3 artist la sangat* coursemate saya jak tuh! haha

 me with the deers~ <3

 haaa don't try this at home hehe

  

rusa1: esshh cukup la pegang2 tuh, xhabes2!

rusa2: xpa2, janji msuk dalam gambar, kowt2 nant masuk blog manusia (ehem2), kan tambah famous tuh!

*klu rusa bley berfikir ini la thought dorang ahaks2 haha xD*

Jeng3 di situ jugak ada Sun Bear :))

*perhatian beruang ini adalah beruang Malaysia it's on the verge of instinction, oleh itu kami sempat untuk memberi derma khas kepada Sun Bear supaya dia dapat diberi second chance dan tidak hilang dari muka bumi ini,  

because we care! : )

-The End for Part 01-

(bersambung)

zzzzZZzz~