Reminiscent of shame-on-you

I am never a front man, always am, and never will it changes.

It's another one of those disappointed feelings gushing out again just to make me feel bad. Who to blame? Of course, me myself and I.  *BIG SIGH*

I hate it sometimes how one moment I felt so bad about something, but in the next day, it's not there anymore.  People would say it's one of the advantages, kinda, 'cuz you don't linger around it so much to make the situation more severe. Or to make yourself feel more inferior. am I grateful about it? I don't know. But if I don't care about it so much, how can I improve? or how can I be better? 

I do this all the time. From a bad situation, I can realize something good for myself, I would take it. But that is just one time. On the next day, you started to neglect it effortlessly. Frankie, what is wrong with you? You know if you don't do this  you can't go anywhere. But it's hard. The thought is there, but the action is absent.

I should be ashame of myself right? Yes I am. Since long time ago.