Today, I'm All Over The Place.

Last night I didn't slept at all. I was up for something entirely ridiculous. Judging from the situation I'm in right now, I wouldn't say I can not do something crazy. I'm a little mixed up with my feelings currently. Why doesn't I feel so so down right now for what happened to people surround me especially my friend? Is it fair to be happy when someone else's not ? I have a lot of those remarks playing over and over again in my mind. Completely involuntary I laughed over this little show I downloaded from #youtube. Then it hit me, is it okay for me to laugh? In my mind, I was like "No, you shouldn't" but I did it anyway. I don't know what is wrong with me. 

Actually I slept at 12 this afternoon and woke up at 3. I sore up pretty much my neck to my arms and backbone. I skipped my lunch meal. Just had dinner at 6. I don't know. Today, I'm all over the place.

I texted my friend's sister again today regarding to my friend's situation. Asked her whether he has woken up yet. I wished it so much that answer would be yes. But unfortunately, it was completely the opposite. God, how I need a miracle now.