A Piece of My Mind.

I think I HATE someone right now. Yeah. The feeling of disgusted is there. I can't possibly look at the-one-I-hate in the eyes like if possible I don't even wanna be near to the-one-I-hate. Lets just put the-one-I-hate into "A", malas mo tulis pnjang2.

I knew this A person since like I entered my university. Of course back then we were cool and all that. But I don't know what the hell was wrong with me back then thinking that this A person had a decent heart. So knowing what kind of person A is now really pisses me off. Like I feel like so stupid. How dumb I am to like easily trusted A. Ughh! Just thinking about it makes me angry. 

Actually, it has been awhile I got this mixed up feelings inside of me. And I just happen to have the mood to write about it now. Or maybe I just need  to let this hatred out of me. Call me coward, but I don't want to start a fight. Besides knowing that I'm not very good at fighting really cut the chances of me winning slightly below 50%.(if there is a fight) So, I think the best way to let my innerself blow off his steam, is write about it here. (the perfect place)

Have you guys ever being played before? like there's this invisible string on every single movement joints you have which control mobility. (lol I don't think this makes any sense) Well, em what I'm trying to say here is actually like a kid's toy. Tossed around, pulled back when you are actually needed just like a puppet. It's like you're soulless to them. Damn! and this A person is a very good "puppetmaster".

I started to hate every single bits of A. I say bits because I really mean EVERYTHING! Gawd! I never hate someone this much before, this is like the first time. I don't know what would I do if i don't like write this down. I bet this A person is gonna die in my hands. I swear I'm capable of doing that if it comes to the point where I can't hold back anymore. Period.

All of this is so not good. I'm not intend to keep this feeling any longer. I have to say my prayer,

"oh Father, please wash away this impurity thought I have in me, Father please send down your angels and guard this humble servant of yours from the devils which can influence his mind, 

I'm weak, I can't fight it alone. I serve for Father always. Amen."