End of Two Weeks Holiday

It has been exactly two weeks. Mid semester break is over. People are coming back here. I have been here the whole time by the way. Did I mention that I stayed behind during our 2 weeks holiday? Yeah I did. It was quiet. There were less people around. I love it. 

I feel kinda sad or rather unpleasant when everybody come back little by little. Noises are everywhere. So many moving people. Even confining myself in the room does not help. I missed waking up to just hearing the creaking sound of my own bed, and blowing wind from the fan. To put in another words, being in my own little world.

I know at some point, eventually my own little world would be over. Well apparently it has. I don't know why but I wanna call this past 2 weeks of mine the little getaway paradise. It really was. I won't lie 'cause it does feel peaceful staying here. The environment is just perfect. A little space from dealing with people is just great once in awhile.

The real work will comes along soon. Though there are some of my previous work hasn't completed yet. I'm such a lazy person. I don't know whether I would have time to write but I'll try. Anyway, 'till then.

It's Nice To Be Celebrated With Good Friends

I guess it's true when people say spontaneous thing do make the most memory of all. At least for me I guess. It has been quite a long time since I had this kind of treatment. I am really really grateful for the celebration they had done for me. For showering me with such surprise, joyous, and the most spontaneous birthday ever! Gosh, I really owe you girls this big time. Thanks a bunch! :)

Above all, I am glad this month didn't turned out to be a nightmare. The reason for this 'cuz my friend pulled through. I couldn't ask for a better gift than that. Everything went well. Everything end up well. 

I am a happy man. 

Oh yeah. I overspent again. Bought myself 2 jeans and 3 T's. Best of all, I had my girls helped out in picking 'em. Well, now thank God it happens only in November 14th lol. 

No matter what, you all made my day :)

Condemned Me.

I am literally crying in the inside right now. Only God knows how I feel deep down. This is the second time I feel like this after my deceased grandfather. Remembering those flashback really brings out the worst emotional part of me. I could have never imagine looking back at my life, I can become like this now. It's commonly said to people, "hey, that's part of life.". However, it is never really what you'd know how to deal with when it is happening. Just knowing is not the as same seeing it happening in front of your eyes.

Today, I'm All Over The Place.

Last night I didn't slept at all. I was up for something entirely ridiculous. Judging from the situation I'm in right now, I wouldn't say I can not do something crazy. I'm a little mixed up with my feelings currently. Why doesn't I feel so so down right now for what happened to people surround me especially my friend? Is it fair to be happy when someone else's not ? I have a lot of those remarks playing over and over again in my mind. Completely involuntary I laughed over this little show I downloaded from #youtube. Then it hit me, is it okay for me to laugh? In my mind, I was like "No, you shouldn't" but I did it anyway. I don't know what is wrong with me. 

Actually I slept at 12 this afternoon and woke up at 3. I sore up pretty much my neck to my arms and backbone. I skipped my lunch meal. Just had dinner at 6. I don't know. Today, I'm all over the place.

I texted my friend's sister again today regarding to my friend's situation. Asked her whether he has woken up yet. I wished it so much that answer would be yes. But unfortunately, it was completely the opposite. God, how I need a miracle now.

I Have/Will Not.

I have not stop believing. You will wake up. You have promise me that with your own words. I will not stop believing. I WILL NOT.

I don't know what else to do but surrender to You, Father. Please help Your son, please :'(

Safe & Sound.

Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars

I remember tears streaming down your face

When I said, "I'll never let you go"

When all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window, darling,

Everything's on fire

The war outside our door keeps raging on

Hold on to this lullaby

Even when the music's gone

Gone

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh

Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh

La La (La La)

La La (La La)

Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh

Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh

La La (La La)

Just close your eyes

You'll be alright

Come morning light,

You and I'll be safe and sound...

Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh oh oh. [x7]

***Please be okay.

God, Please Help Him.

"Dear Father in heaven, it's me again, I've been asking quite a lot recently, I am sorry for I am just your humbly servant. I am grateful to be given the belief of knowing you're always by our side no matter what. That has given me a little comfort. But right now, I am humbly asking for your comfort to reach to my dearest/a friend who's been admitted to the hospital again today. I am terribly shocked by this news. Please please please please, help my friend be okay. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen."

:'(