D'uhh!

:: Word of the day :: 

"I don't care, because I can do as well!"

I Ask Thee

With all the unnatural things been happening right now, 

I just wanted to take this moment to pray for my beloved family and Sabah.

Hope nothing bad is gonna happen.

My prayer is also to the people in Japan.

Rest in peace to those who can't make it.

Not your Concern I guess

OMG! i just saw a very disturbing video relating to acnes. It makes me feel so shallow about myself, damn! Acnes "destroy" my life. I know it may not sounds fair if I just say I'm the only one who has been suffering from this disadvantage, I mean no. Everybody has, but how the suffering/experiences one has faces, that's different.

People who do not have this disadvantage are very lucky. They wouldn't have to go through this kind of period in life. and they are so not understand how we feel too. For instance, like, being so uncomfortable with yourself, like, you don't have even the slightest confidences to talk to people, or even to woo anyone, and etc. Still, I know not everyone of us have faced these kind of situation, there are people who can still be himself/herself and be happy i guess. I am quite the opposite of that. Maybe abit, or half. Ok, whatever. The point is, it sucks!

But I'm glad that I actually have friends who don't see someone by their looks. Like, that kind of person, I believe has a very good heart. I guess they are the reason I can still be myself :)

Jar Of Hearts

- Currently into this song -

MODE:: Cant Explain

i know i can’t take one more step towards you

cause all thats waiting is regret

don’t you know i’m not your ghost anymore

you lost the love i loved the most

i learned to live, half alive

and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?

runnin’ ’round leaving scars

collecting a jar of hearts

tearing love apart

you’re gonna catch a cold

from the ice inside your soul

don’t come back for me

who do you think you are?

i hear you’re asking all around

if i am anywhere to be found

but i have grown too strong

to ever fall back in your arms

ive learned to live, half alive

and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?

runnin’ ’round leaving scars

collecting a jar of hearts

and tearing love apart

you’re gonna catch a cold

from the ice inside your soul

don’t come back for me

who do you think you are?

it took so long just to feel alright

remember how to put back the light in my eyes

i wish i had missed the first time that we kissed

cause you broke all your promises

and now you’re back

you don’t get to get me back

who do you think you are?

running around leaving scars

collecting a jar of hearts

and tearing love apart

you’re gonna catch a cold

from the ice inside your soul

so don’t come back for me

dont come back at all

x2

who do you think you are?

who do you think you are?

who do you think you are?

No Water Sucks!!

It's raining at 3 o'clock in the morning. Finally, RAIN!! but why didnt you fall at the afternoon of something, that would be a purrrfect time, yes! Hey have I told you guys how HOT it has been here lately, like extremely hot! makes me wonder am I in Sahara or something. I think this is the place as close as Hell you can find on earth. lol

    I can tolerate with hot weather, I mean any people can if you have water to help you stay hydrated. right? but what happens when there is no water? Now that's a disaster. Two environment crisis that I'm facing right now, are hot weather and water is scarce. Can you imagine going back to your room all sweaty and smelly because of the weather and like you wanted to take a bath just to fresh up and clean yourself you know, and when you go the bathroom and like going for the pipe, you found out that no water is coming out or running down. I mean like seriously imagine yourself in that position, that's what I faced for a couple of days now. and I don't even sure if we are going to be like this forever, I mean ofcourse during my study here. nway c'mon!!

    People wouldn't understand my difficulties on this matter, because you guys don't have hyperhidrosis. I do. and this freaking hyperhidrosis really messes up my life, period! Plus with all this shit happening right now, I'm totally fucked up! ughhh! Damn you! Damn whoever wanted to be damned! I HATE THIS!!! Gawd!!!

SO FUCKING ANNOYED!

Ughh!! CANT YOU UNDERSTAND YOU ARE ALREADY FUCKING ANNOYING TO ME??! Do I have to spell it out for you?? Are you that stupid that you cant even notice the stay-away signal I've been giving to you?? Gawd! You are nothing to me anymore, NOTHING ok! Don't spout any of your nonsense whatever it is you're trying to make a conversation out of it, it's not gonna work. Infact, I feel DISGUSTED! Every single thing that come out of that very mouth of yours, it is SO FUCKING ANNOYING! I don't intend to interfere with your life, so stay away from mine. For good. Dammit for God's sake! Don't make me hurt you. I swear to God I will.

Just FUCK OFF!!!!

Come What May

Of all the time, suddenly I feel like writing something right now. Hey do you guys still remember I said something about how I take music as my "recording tape"? Yeah, a glimpse of a video just crossed on my mind just now. [Music: Coldplay- The Scientist] It stop me for a moment to think. Absorbed by that very clip of that video, in my mind, all I can think of is what had happened to me? People always say that ok you will grow up to be something good, or at least useful. I'm taken aback by that statement for a moment, suddenly I feel like I don't think I have become something good, or I have become a better person. It struck me real hard when I started to think that, hey I didn't got better, I have gotten worst! People can see who they are inside of them, I don't think I can because sometimes it's hard I don't know and it sadden me if someday whether I would ever get the chance to actually discover who I am really. By that time, I don't know if there's still be anyone who would want to share my "music" with me.

I'd say I lie if I say after I got the worst "music" ever played in my life, I am gonna have a fullstop. No. I am good or bad, I do understand how the reality of world works. Sooner or later, I am to listen to it again, because I am a music lover after all. =)

Music is a bliss. I guess this is my track.